I'll really miss you?

I wanna try explain the mix inside me... I can't define. I just know that if you hate me now 'cause I took to understand late.. I'll hate you 'cause you couldn't let me try.
In this days I knew little things that I really never

thought! It's stranger! Was hard to me. I can't cry.. I just can think.. And I couldn't find one reason for this.. All the things that you said was lie?

What should I believe? The roles were reversed? Did I am the fool now? Why you are playing with my fellings? Why you are this monster now? It's all my fault or it's your true face? There are so many questions in my head.. and none answer! I don't believe it! I can't believe it! I won't believe it!